The Return!

^^ I know I've said I wanted to leave this blog, but the turn of events for the better really encouraged me =P Therefore, sorry, cause KJJ Lover's back in action! I just can't help leaving this blog and all of you alone. *itchy fingers* (I guess no one noticed my departure much..T0T Why oh why?)

Anyway, let's all hope for a new beginning! ^^ The House is back!
©2010 *SEGA-Princess

Here's Nurse Joy for us all! (and Chansey=) I miss Pokemon...

.....

=)

things change~

i know.

n me myself also not the one who make it better..

it is sad..

no one will feel happy above all this~

i do know about that too..

everyone, all of us will have to experience this..

n now we are..

in the process of receiving the tests that God had give to us.

i dont want to hurt anyone.,

dun want anyone to feel unhappy., 

n im sure no one want that too~

hence... as a fren.. *sincerely*

=))

 from the bottom of my heart:

i love everyone of u..

yeah~ sometimes.,

i might be irritating,

my *didnt pass through brain* words is hurt.,

annoying~

everyone have their disadvantages~ yes.

when there are dots on a blank paper..

we tend to look at the dots part.

but, for  everyone of us.,

surely we do realise about the white part..

we just keep it in our heart n head..

 n it goes without saying~

i hope all my frens here, esp the 6 basements of this blog.. 

will achieve good results n be better in the future..

God bless you in everything u do~

=)

lastly~

i want to share the msg my senior sent to me 2 years ago..

Friendship is like standing on a wet cement..

the longer u stand, the harder to leave.

n!

if u r able to leave,

u will leave footprints..

^^

Leaving...

"If life is a sheet of paper, I would fill the corners with colours and leave the very center white."

If there is one thing all six, not one, not two, but six, of us share right now, a frozen heart would be it. For those stuck in the broil, our past response would have been to get to the bottom of things and sort out the mess, because our hearts were still warm and forgiving. We never felt burdened in sharing and sacrificing, because our hearts were pure and easily contented. Why now, have we all changed? I feel so stupid sometimes, shedding tears for I ache to go back in time, back when everything was fine. Don't anyone of you ever reminisce the past? Or have our hearts harden so?

I'm disappointed in many things but above all, I'm disappointed with myself. I no longer feel like I belong, and I hate myself for it. I hate myself for giving up now, and having to see all our efforts crumbling right in front of our eyes.

This will be my final post in The House, which had once laughed, sparkled and basked with pure happiness, but has now been scarred, tormented and ridiculed.

I have a message for everyone, so there'll be 5 notes here, one for each of you unnamed. So take whichever you feel most connected to:

~ You have been fragile, and possibly still do. When emotions are hard to handle, just let it all out, and we'll try to be there for you, but please give us time.

~ Among us all, I feel like our views have been the most dissimilar when it comes to petty stuff, but I look up to you when it comes to handling the larger ones. I really do.

~ I'm sorry for never really getting to know you, and probably you would rather not want us to. Though I may not know what you think, I know for sure that I miss the old you. I miss her very much.

~ I can't say I fully agree with your choice of actions sometimes, and I believe we've talked it through. But I daresay, you're a person who cares really well for close friends, and I'm thankful for everything.

~ I want to thank you dearly for all your efforts in keeping this house whole. We see them, just we never get the chance to acknowledge them. It must be hard for you, being the bridge and having to be patient with us. Sorry.

Goodbye, The House.

一次的挫折不会打倒我的

明天的天空还会依然晴朗

但是有苦难言的感受谁知道

[SoUl]

Have you often wondered about the future? We could get so hyped up talking about it as the possibilities are so massive and unlimited. We could just sit back and indulge in thoughts of what sort of house we want, which car model, our ideal spouse (or spouses if you wish) and you would just think and think and picture and think more and then add in more details and picture it all over again and think and think some more. @_@



My point in writing this isn’t to bring you on a labyrinth of mind adventure, though if I did, I must have overlooked. And overlooking is a grave mistake that should never be attempted at all cost as it is very costly to be overlooking things, which brings me back to what I have been having in mind, before all these irritating ‘over looking’s are starting to take over the rail.

Now my second question, and the main I dare say, is WHAT MAKES US ALL SO SURE THAT TOMORROW WILL COME? The sense of reassurance is overpowering that it has succeeded in blinding us all. I must admit that I used to be positively sure that I can live for at least 10 more years, expecting those years to not change much, picturing my family together just as it is now, and me working my butt off at a hospital in the future, with mortgages and installments queuing to be cleared, etc. Funny though, just as a side note, I have no thoughts of ever getting tied to marriage and the picture of building a family never crossed my mind.





I believe that what governs our mind is the routine of ‘ideal life’ we have all been expecting, unless you are on drugs or your brain works in funny ways or is really just a messy mass of cells, or you suffer from a terminal disease, we would somehow or another, at one point or another in life, come to think of the future.

The horror of NOT having one sinks in, I think, when I was in early secondary, after reading this book from Nicholas Sparks, coupled with the unhealthy overexposure to news of murder cases, freak accidents that killed many, and pandemic diseases that just sprout out of nowhere. Scary, isn’t it, when you picture yourself in their shoes, and yet what to do? We still have to embrace Life, as well as the Death that is attached to its hip like an annoying lap dog.






And then my thoughts just propelled themselves further. As if the idea of me dying before my goals can be accomplished and before I could return my family their favor for raising me up so well, isn’t gory enough, the idea of my loved ones leaving abruptly just has to make its way into my chain of troubled thoughts. Probably by now, people might have judged that I’m bringing myself all these problems which don’t even exist in the first place. Serve her right. Who asked her to think negative?

Now here comes the core of all these bunch of merry-go-rounds and time travel. The main point that I intend to say all along is this. Never assume tomorrow will greet you. Never be comforted that tomorrow, I can still do this, I can still do that. Never let yourself fall into a routine. And lastly, never assume that the one you love or have a crush on or the one that you care about will be there tomorrow.

So whatever it is, just live each day as if it’s your last and don’t leave out anything to be done tomorrow, especially mending a relationship or even, developing one. Life is an ambiguity and is not forever, so it’s time you treasure yours.

Finally, thanks for reading.

KJJ Lover signs out.

[SoUl]

I used to believe that this smoothly sculptured ice berg didn't choose to bore a hole right through its innards...but right now, I'm starting to doubt myself. This huge separation we see now will only grow with time before the frailly connected joint too falls apart, if that is how we WANTED it to be. I'm merely a spectator and I wish not to interfere, but it is proving to be very difficult since I'm in a position where I can't do a thing to help, but my heart feels burdened by how things have propelled into such a sorry state...

Why do we choose to hurt each other, when we are the ones who will be hurt the most?





How I wish this is true... unfortunately, it doesn't work that way.

KJJ Lover signs out.

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